As musicians, a large part of our learning is experiential. In fact, that's a large part of all human learning. Very strong sensory experiences become memories, while untold numbers of sensory experiences are fleeting. Giving sensory experiences names helps us to recall them as needed. A restaurant that serves very "salty" food may be one I avoid, for example, as it isn't my favorite taste experience, while one that balances flavors toward "umami", a delicious savory taste, will get my return business.
When I returned to the piano business after meeting Chris Stevens (see Part One), I was in a bit of a jam. For almost three decades I had used the word "weight" to tell my sensory memory how to play dynamics on the piano. If I took away that label, I would surely have to replace it with something else. But first, I had to figure out what I was doing at the piano that seemed liked adding weight.
1. I was pulling down through my arm structure.
To me, that was the way I could get more arm weight into the keys. I had probably seen this same movement dozens of times when watching other pianists. This I discovered on my first meeting with another wonderful British Alexander Technique (AT) Teacher, Elisabeth Walker. She took one look at me and said, "You're a pianist, aren't you?" I thought she had learned mind-reading from her training teacher, F.M. Alexander himself! What she had learned to recognize was a general habit of pianists to pull down through the arm structure.
2. I was leaning forward from my "waist".
Because, of course, if I could get more arm weight into the game by pulling my arms down, just imagine what I could do with my whole torso! In addition to the fallacy of arm weight, I was also abiding by the fallacy of a waist. This was something I was beginning to change through AT lessons, but it was certainly part of my earlier attempts to add weight to the keys.
3. I was gripping with the muscles of the palms of my hands.
Why, I don't know, as I don't recall anyone ever advising this in terms of weight. It probably just felt like more weight in my hands, actually the crux of the whole experiential part of my exploration, which is this:
4. I wanted to "feel" something different when applying "weight" to the keys.